Remembering Kim

A Reflection By David A. Curtis

February 18, 2002 - I got the idea to create this site as the 20th anniversary of her death approached. I thought it would be a great way to immortalize her memory and share her last thoughts with others to perhaps give them strength. You can clearly see how special she was from her journal.

I've had her journal since her death but admit I never read it from start to finish. I would pick it up and read a few pages. It was just too painful to continue. The pain came not only from her notes, but knowing I missed my opportunity to be with her through the end. You see, I was in my late teens when the cancer first started and was too busy with my own life to stop and consider she might die. I lacked vision that would come with a price later. As any big brother would admit, she was considered a "bother" as she was growing up. I have no idea why I did this.

Creating this site meant I had to scan typewritten documents (including her journal) and go back in to clean up the characters that didn't recognize. This meant I had to read pages I never previously read. I never imagined I would be so moved after nearly 20 years. The emotion just poured out. I learned things about her condition that I didn't know until now. I mostly learned that I missed really getting to know a beautiful young woman. I sure miss her now.

What I did get from Kim's death in 1982 was that life is short. I quit partying and immediately following her death and decided to join the Air Force to make something of myself. That decision came directly as a result of her death. I ended up with a good career instead of becoming worthless. Believe me, I was on the track to becoming worthless. I married and fathered two children of my own.

If you don't get anthing else from this page, get this point:

Loved ones are only here for a short time. Spend the time with them. You'll regret it if you don't.

David A. Curtis